self help

Routine Maintenance

Routine Maintenance

Until It Happens To You

Until It Happens To You

A Recipe for Relapse

A Recipe for Relapse

The Inevitability of Things Sucking (aka: No, There is Nothing Wrong With You)

The Inevitability of Things Sucking (aka: No, There is Nothing Wrong With You)

Grief Is Just Love With No Place To Go

Grief, I've learned, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give, but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in the hallow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.

Grief Is Just Love With No Place To Go

I Don't Want To Die Young

Addiction extinguishes the flame inside you. The one that sometimes burns brightly, and fuels everything of value: passion, creativity, drive, hope. I felt as though the fire inside me went out so long ago that all of those things went with it.

I Don't Want To Die Young

Song For Zula (Video)

See the cage, it called. I said, come on inI will not open myself up this way again Nor lay my face to the soil, nor my teeth to the sand I will not lay like this for days now upon end...

Song For Zula (Video)

The Dream Box: On Loss & Losing Grip

In 2012, I had found 'my calling'. I was helping people everywhere, using my god-given-talent and a lot of creativity. I was a philanthropist and I was changing lives around the world, making dreams come true. I was being featured on The Today Show. World News with Diane Sawyer. Here I am today, an alcoholic having dreams of losing my thumbs.

The Dream Box: On Loss & Losing Grip

The Dream Box: Reconnecting with my dead Dad

He smelled like the factory he worked at when I was a child. Like grease and coal. And he put his lips to the top of my head while I was still crying and said 'I forgive you. For most of it.'

The Dream Box: Reconnecting with my dead Dad